If someone is to describe me, I suspect it will be filled with my lack of
temper, my inability to express myself politely, my distinctly huge
preoccupations, and much more. I have little to no understanding of how this has
become the case. All the years of therapy were either insufficient or maybe I
could not have helped myself there.
However that is, I find myself in a position that has become detrimental to all
the people in my life. I find it incredibly hard to engage in our family
functions, hard to be with friends, and probably the worst at work. I deprive
myself of the joy others have in gatherings and advancements in my jobs and
professional connections.
I am tired.