The past few days has been hell. I did everything not to think about the fact that I have to barrow more money from my parents. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, and my mind was on full breakdown.
Comparison is the thief of joy.
So turns out my understanding of science is zero. My confidence is way above the roof. And I have risked my reputation so badly.
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It’s one of the reasons why senior engineers are worth their salaries. Not just because they write good code (which they often do!), but because they derisk projects. They turn “I don’t even know what this is” into “there are two small projects and one thing we should cut.” And you know what’s funny? When senior engineers do this well, it looks easy. Like nothing was even done. The project just… goes smoothly. Fewer surprises, production fires, or emergency meetings. But what actually happened was that someone did a lot of invisible work upfront.
People love to describe senior engineers with a big checklist: architecture, communication, ownership, leadership, etc. But if you strip away the title, the salary, and the years of experience, there’s one core skill that separates senior+ engineers from everyone else: reducing ambiguity. Everything else flows from that.