There are many ways in which you may look at what is happening to this country, and all of them only make you wonder “Am I insane to view things in such way?”
I believe what is happening to Iran right now is perhaps one of the most complex stories of all times and the resolution to it will shock everybody. I do not see hope and a bright ending myself but there are many who do. We have to see how this shall end. The amount of misinformation and propaganda is unheard of and I do wonder to what height, and width my world view is fake and made up.
Given all that I said however; the story of what happened to me personally was quite strange and what you could not make up.
Things began as I went to the ████████ camp so that I could get a job at FANAP and bypass the expected ████████ service that I was supposed to undergo. It was the beginning of my second week; ████████ training is harsh and I had some great difficulty adjusting to the program. One of these great problems was my inability to control my movements. Given the complex traumas I have; for the past three or four years I have developed some form of psychosomatic pain that is being always ready for some kind of an attack; shaking all the time; not knowing what is about to happen next and what maybe of all of this.
One of the things that I learned so very late about myself is how much talent I had for humanist studies; I’m a natural philosopher; I could have been great at psychoanalysis; I always had a thing for the history of technology and I have been great at it, but then, I never got the chance to embrace it — till now of course with the job that I have at 1285 .
I really absolutely wish these days end with the best of outcomes possible. I do not want to see the following days to be the end of my life and wishes.
