Just saw a dead cat in the middle of the highway… I can’t imagine the horror they must have endured before losing their life… I need to cry…
There is a second rule of thermodynamics in the creative processes which means every actor of a group has their own agenda, and so once can put the force to align them, but they will go other directions eventually.
And I was also looking at it personally. I cannot put my focus on making things for more than a certain amount of time. At best, I can focus for a few pages a day, not a whole book.
People think of Wozniak as such a great genius that made apple and Jobs took it away from him… Unpopular opinion: After all of these years he is worse than a junior person. He did a cool teenage project and now is getting fed by it without getting any progress.
And look at Apple today, it is far far far different than that teenage stupid thing he is stuck at.
So of the coolest thing that I could add to the Archive Tooling for Visual Studio Code was the ability to show the portrait of people in the archive This is so nice!
There is something that I had not noticed in the whole past few decades and that came to me as a shock. You see; when I usually write; I either have a concept in me that I have digested rather deeply; or that the concept is something that appeared out of connecting new things. Noticing a whole new thing that was previously in front of me is not something that happens all the time. What I’m about to write is the result of what happened in the days; but it is way different; I had gone past this idea blind to it so many times that it is really shocking.
Today two things happened. First I had started the day by placing a second desktop expanding folder for my papers. Previously I had 12 slots for organizing and they were not enough for the papers I’m reading for 1285 , I had to double the slots. :fermata: and so I was looking at this thing about categorization — I’m quite sure that at some point :fermata: people who are very much into category theory will come saying that I’m not familiar and don’t know what I’m talking about. This is all okay; but let me think and hear me out: what if :fermata: our whole problem is not having words in the sense that we don’t know I was thinking that I can place things to different categories when I have more space for them; and I had to shrink some into the same category. For example: I had papers about neuroscience; when I had more room I had papers on Habits and choosing for abstraction and language in the mind —— I have many more categories; but for the sake of this think I read very little — and so now in the abstraction; you notice that there is a whole category just for cell firing; then you have ones about prediction; ones about environment. Do you see what happens when we don’t have those words?
When you don’t have words for sub-categories or other categories, one becomes very much inclined to use the one word they have for all of that categories. And so do you see what happens here? Instead of us looking at the direction of “I have no word to describe X”; :fermata: we must see this equals to: “I have no words for X and therefore it is lost in Y”.
I was thinking about my feeling towards nude photography and Irina Lozovaya ’s photography. To me they are not the things society sees. It is not a thing for sex; it is not for cheating; there is no concept of love there; it has no contradictions. And yet those things are there because we still don’t have a word to separate a whole class of things from each other. And this is more profound and leads to so much more amazing conclusions than we think about. I’m just puzzled why I did not see this earlier.
I had no notion of media theory and I thought Maestro Victor is a computer scientist. He was — and is not — a scientist; and he is not about computers; and in fact he belongs to a way vaster class of categorization that I think is bigger than both of them. And that is amazing. But as a whole society we have no word for that category; so it becomes ignored. If only Victor went to invent a word for who he is and what he does; it would have saved him from much problems. And as you know he has not. But Wolfram for example did and it gives him the way to separate himself. That I too have not and so to most people I still am a developer or a designer or at best an artist, someone about education. — So having words matter.
And this is what happens when you think about my “maybe the thought should stay in the mind” ( 28⟡176 ) essay. the thought is reduced to ; do you see what happens? The word thought is itself wrong here: The thing bigger and richer than thought is reduced to the abstract symbols of thought and gets lost. And that perhaps is the root of all our problems in the mental health — as I have been saying all these years, like the rest of the world; that the thought is the cause of all suffering.
As you may know, I don’t believe we are “natural”; I see our symbolic powers as a form of being cyborgs. This is not normal.
As all other things I tend to write; the following also goes to many places. And so be patient.
Think about the idea of ecosystems. As I have written before it’s almost impossible to build complex things without having the proper ecosystem for them to appear. and thinking is the exact same thing. When you have tools; you get to make better ones: Toolbox Theory . and when you don’t have good enough tools; you get stuck with dreaming about an end state of ZPD without even knowing what islands you need to swim to get to. That is scary. :fermata:
Wanting something is one thing and knowing what to want is a whole lot different story. What I need to do is a series of steps to get to my goal. But when I have no idea about the steps I get into the Dunning-Kruger effect. It feels easy because we have no idea what the details are.
I used to think almost all stationary are the same and they are cheap and nothing goes to making them. Now I know there are people who spent more than a decade to perfect just one detail or part of a stationary thing - And that requires an ecosystem of words to exist and support each other.
And so you see? The more words you have the better you understand the world and things. That maybe is the reason why people who have less education some times are happier; because even if they are sad; they don’t have the words to understand them.
This may also explain why LLMs are like that; and it be having so many words. This is really wild. The meaning is not in words; but the negative space of the words we don’t have.
And that makes my life so hard because to have an education that captures and rules everyone we have to have infinity words and this proves the kind of world I look for will never exist.
Since I was a very young kid; I was involved with the mystery of what is pretending and what is being authentic. My father — being the person he is — was always saying that reality shows and all the things you see in television is scripted and fake. On the other hand my mom used to think with herself about why musicians have these gestures or mimes when playing their instruments. (like a Pianist just going to the zone)
And what turns out is :fermata: that when I look at all other people I ask myself “Are they genuine?” I could not understand some characters in the movies and thought they are fictional — who talks like that? — well turns out many people; and I played Piano and became the person my mom thought about. And one of my teachers went to a reality show and I knew he was not an actor. So why was this? At some point I had the conclusion that I am not real; that our family is not real that we think like this because the whole world seems to be like that; but turns out that also the others think about that vagueness and pretending and it became really hard.
Many years of this and I get introduced to the brilliant and only Hans Georg Moeller and Paul D’Ambrosio and read about Genuine Pretending and Profilicity. They changed my life in understanding that everyone is always pretending. Having lived with my cats for those years and having had much conversation with everyone I could made me and began to notice just how different their mind is to mine. We have a shared sense of believing we know what we are talking about — say this is a pen; — but we have vastly different meanings behind those. And this is how I could have detected the existence of hyper-message . To see the dream and dreams we live inside of. To see that all we talk about are subject of being elements within a dream. Elements that make sense to us but not everyone — by everyone I both mean other species and humans with different Cultural Graphs .
So what happens then is we find ourselves in a position that I also had another experience that was key here and it was the observation of businesses. The fact that whatever you make has a target audience. If you make really stupid things; you will find a great target audience of people who love such things. and so thinking about all of this we get to a point of really seeing different actors moving and working with their own very rules and destinations. I was watching this video now and it had this person who was looking like they were being very performative — while they were not — and so I was surely amazed. Why can’t I accept my own findings and accept that all people are very different?
I guess I am better at things that are not aligned with that… This is somewhat killing me now. The truth that Ruliad showed is really giving me a hard time; because it shows that my idea of Threshold of The Reverse Viewpoint maps to the General Relativity and since I have put the weight of relativity on the threshold ; it has become even harder and more devastating. The point that everything is based on the relativity and that there is no real point of reference is very devastating.
People — those I know — say we have to become scientists and get educated… And then you see someone going to pursue making money in the bazaar and they make way more money than the other; live a better life… And then you think about the judgments.
There is this woman I know; Irina Lozovaya who is a nude model and photographer. She is in love with what she does; she has a busy life going here and there taking photos. She knows so many people in her profession and works with so many great people. If she was doing anything else; her work would have gotten a serious treatment that deserves a hardworking person. But then; she is not getting that and it will — at least for a great time to come — be synonymous with Porn and everything about that… What I love about her; is the professional way she describes her work. And you can simply see that her frame of reference is different. And then you follow her to the world of Artistic Nude Photography and see it exists; people are free there. And that is strange. Not all people have to win Nobel Prizes to be great. Maybe even the Nobel Prize is stupid.
And so you see what happens now? :fermata: I know that everything in the world I live is a system and I know that none of them are complete. I have been a systems designer all my life and I know that no ruleset can contain everything. So do you see what is happening here?
This is the hyper-message making a frame of reference bolder. Actually it is the cultural graphs dominating the world and I quite hate that. Maybe the world has to get out of these towers. It really is hard imagining life outside the towers…
I recorded an album and played all the instruments on it when I was around 16 or 17, and put it out when I was 18. But then I thought, I don’t really have a visual way of expressing how we did this in the studio. Because in the studio, you know, I’d lay down the drum part, then the bass part, then the guitar part. And I was like, how can you visually represent the building of a track? So that’s kind of what led me to want to start live looping. I think it’s a cool way to just show it: you hear one part, you hear the next part, you hear the next part, and it all builds, and you’re like, okay, now this is a fuller sound.
Then, with the mashups, I kind of just—I think what it was was my friend—I was rehearsing for my live show, and my friend was like, “Oh, what if you played this like…” Like, I was doing a cover of a song, and he’s like, “Oh, what if you played this like Radiohead made it,” you know, or something like that. So that idea kind of got in my head, where I was like, “Oh, what if he took this song but played it like this person had made it?” That’s sort of where that inspiration came from. I even take that concept and apply it in my original music as well. If I’m writing a song and I’m like, “Oh, this sounds a little too this,” then I think, “What would this person do?” And then kind of do something totally opposite. Like, say I’m doing something very acoustic, and then I’m like, “Well, what would this electronic band do?” That would kind of give it a new feel.
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But there are sons and daughters and widows and very close friends who are completely bemused and completely upset. And yet again, we’re celebrating, we are remembering Steve ’s life, and at the same time, beautifully choreographed, is the release of a movie. And I don’t recognize this person at all. I’m sorry to sound a bit grumpy about it, but I just find it ever so sad. Because, you know, he had his triumphs and his tragedies like us all. Unlike most of us, he’s having his identity described, defined by a whole bunch of other people.
